| After this, im logging out of lj. And for the next fourty days, expect no entry nor comment. I'm getting sarah to change my password. And thus begins my sabbatical. No more dallying. TODAY is the day i choose. TODAY is the day i begin to repair my broken altar. Things are happening in CFC, things are happening among the leaders. And, i dont want to be left behind. I must fall out for this time to regain what i have lost along the way. Only then can i renew my strength. and soar like on wings of the eagle. So if you see me online anytime outside of 9 to 10 on wednesdays/fridays PLEASE get me off. My friends, i love you still, i'll be back commenting. MISS ME!!! my birthday is on the 21st of August =] still contactable 91525563 yay. Good bye, i'll be back, risen from the ashes. Quite exciting tho, when i'm risen again, theres MMM core to go back to, SLURP without sarah's physical presence, i believe God has soemthing in stall for all of us. TOWARDS PERFECTION! =]
by the way, comment! i wont reply but i'll love to read it ><
interested, please message =] concert/dance/art FIESTA! | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment   |
| ok, modifying my materialistic wishlist. two parts ( needlist ) and ( wantlist )
and another thing. people! please help. i need to get singtel hearts, so people who read today PLEASE PLEASE keep that page. chloe needs two thousand. help ya =] | | comments: 24 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | BBMak | | Time: | 10:29 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/niaha/kitty/ankscaredg.gif) distressed |
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| im TWO days behind. how bad is that. somehow, encourage me!
well it was a pretty exciting party over the weekend. there were truckloads of beer, puffed on lots of smoke, stayed up till the weee hours ( and.. ) and its back to reality! sigh, so much homework haven't done. and, and! im TWO days behing my study plan. =[
i dont want to say goodbye i dont want to i dont want to say goodbye to him. maybe im just making a big deal out of nothing but i dont want to i dont want to. and indefinitely too! really. man i shouldnt think so much about it. i believe in true friendship, i believe in him and i believe in this BIG GOD.
i shall post up birthday wishlist, because its fun and i might as well since im doing so much planning towards my big day this year =] ( here ) | | comments: 13 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Creed- My Sacrifice | | Time: | 08:37 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/niaha/kitty/ankthinkg.gif) pensive |
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| i told you, ( don't ) mess with me! anyway, i've had it with personality tests. you see, i cant be placed with generalities. im way too special for that...
so howdy! mugging is awesome! yeah really.. -_- but im being hit by another ridiculous wave of panic attacks, can't think straight, can't focus because im just worrying worrying worrying. but i must not, as alvin puts it, "let the world get to me". (and he can go miss studying, come december, this girl is going to wreck HAVOC. yeah kinda) so in order to help me, i shall learn from nat and create my own plan a. together with the mugging fellowship with evelyn, i should be able to finish it, right? so ive titled it "operation Finish Studying By ( Birthday ) otherwise FSBB. its an auspicious date what. the, TWENTY-FIRST of AUGUST. heheh. | | comments: 13 comments or Leave a comment |
| DIE
now all you freakos.
nah its a hangover. at ten at night. from studying. and i cant believe i told jeremy what i did but whatever. IM A VERY SHALLOW *ITCH. see, i admit it. happy? yeah im sorry, i care alot for appearances. too bad. i like money. i like hot guys. i also, HATE IT ALL. aha nevermind. hangover.
its two percent now.
so anyway today was funny. went out with two thirds of antimonos. we went to a corner of taka to play cards and happily remained blissfully unaware of the camera. hahaha. and then we tried to play while walking. WE ARE SO LAME. maybe its just me. then went over lido to join jing and his friend glen. and studied my guts out. but i also dint get much done. and mya, glen has a message for you. he loves you. right. okok hangover hangover.
PEAS OUT!
oh crash your brains... | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | stone temple pilots PLUSH | | Time: | 10:27 am | | Current Mood: | mugger |
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| Gmail rocks my socks. no seriously, im still on 0%. love it. =]
so anyway, evelyn and me, we've made a study timetable. yeah! and the punishment is to run 2.4. and well, we hate running. =] but so this week, is history chem and emaths week. come on we're going to do this YEAH!
History- Russia/Soviet Union 1917-41
- China 1811-37
- WWI
- Germany 1919-39
- War in Europe
- War in the Pacific
- Peace Settlements, UN
- Cold War 1945-61
- China Civil War – Death of Mao
- Fall of Communist Empire
the subject that is positively going to KILL me.
its mugging time! | | comments: 13 comments or Leave a comment |
| ( baby, fly away )
don't go! don't go!
(why is everyone leaving)
random events/comments
1. listening compre was SO hard
2. chess is SO boring. i can't believe i STILL can solve puzzles.
3. evelyn made me wear a HORRRRRID pair of hot pink pants but i FINALLY got my MNG off-shoulder long-sleeves.
4. why i love doing that, i wonder.
5. i MISS YOU DARN IT.
LET'S STICK IT OUT, TOGETHER! | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 10:24 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/niaha/kitty/anktiredg.gif) listless |
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| I feel vaguely frustrated at myself. Orals The passage was really fine, i honestly thought i was on a roll. i spoke gently (hehe), slurred a few words but generally at an okay pace, (i think). but man i DIED during conversation. i feel so weiqu in that everything i study for always never gets tested. but at the end of it, i will always remember a comment auntie ayelan made. your God so small arh?. And still ultimately its beyond my control now so let's let go and let God! alright!
So yeah, maurice's parents were out again (what else is new) so we went out. to study. yes, i have no life. so anyway that guy was being such a typical idiot and went to take one whole walk around from the mrt to taka and in the end we settled at wheelock. met a few people along the way.
1. mya and gang. (not feminine enough dear)
2. Patrina who is somehow always around town
3. Patricia whom i feel quite unfriendly towards. its quite sad considering she's from my ex-cell but i cant really click with most the kc girls? but i miss may!
4. a certain m*** lim. (i'm so sorry, not my favourite person around) and together with him, (check this out elly and cihan!) p-rincess!
5. ahh yes and of cos CHERLI!! i am such a good friend, even after all these years. maurice is so right in this respect, babe!
so this was a useless recount of my day because its listening compre tmr and after that no more chinese! but i realised that it is really a beautiful language to use. ahh well. k thx, bye! | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | I'm shakin - Rooney | | Time: | 01:04 pm |
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i wouldn't kick him... sirius is supposed to be handsome (STUPID POA CASTERS)
how exciting. i'm joining the mass exodus to gmail. if thou loveth me, add caesuraATgmailDOTcom. so exciting, its my third email change in a year? this time its for good reason, heck its a gig free space. sam rocks. =]
sometimes i really feel tempted to kick him in the ass.
stupid. i want to grow uppppp. get married, earn my own money. haha i'm just a kid and life is a nightmare. lousy song. nayy now that dear jem is out of the rut, i cant fall in. must concentrate. must not get distracted. focus! I press on towards the GOAL!
"ain't not afraid of Goliath cos ive got the strength of David- God in me."
alright. should head on to the library for an afternoon of pia-ing amaths. bye!
I'm shoo shooo shaking!! | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 09:42 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/niaha/kitty/ankhappyg.gif) chipper |
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| Ok today was an ENTIRELY awesome day. i'm feeling absolutely, chipper. See how extremely happy i am? haha. I think church was an awesome start to the day. Something very pleasant happened. Very pleasant =] I've more or less given up on ever getting a reciprocal of whatever feelings i harbour but, doesn't stop me from deriving joy from all the little little things. i'm easily satisfied i guess. some times. =D I got another one of the quotable journals from auntie ayelan. this one said dance like nobody's watching, sing like no one can hear you, love like you've never been hurt before and live like theres heaven on earth. heard it before but its nice. my favourite still is just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly. but yes shut up, shut up. i'm so incredibly chipper right now. ( what i did today... )
so but anyway what i'm really thankful about today was altar call. it was really amazing because God truly spoke to me through the prayer. everything i'd been bothered with, fear, struggling, inadequacies. comes at a good time, its so heartening to know, that God entrusted me with the ministry and i only have to lean on His grace, not anything else but His GRACE and that is sufficient for me! its really the ultimate call for me, giving up control! and the people who know me know i thrive on security, comfort and i guess status quo. but thats not going to get me far. it is each time i've stepped back, decided to hand over the reins to Him that He has MOVED in my life. and i thank God for that. its going to be so hard but heres my motto, conquer fear and smash darkness, by the Grace of God. this faith is just, amazing. | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| sometimes i pity her. alot.
does she really think i'm jealous? of her wow 3.94 gpa? mad. i'd rather not. same as how i'd rather not be in eleven.
i'm pretty much amused now. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Out of Eden- River | | Time: | 04:19 pm | | Current Mood: | unreal |
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| Since i have not yet taken time out to write properly in the journal for a long time, just sporadic bursts of mad rantings, i think i shall go into deeper topics today. As deep as it gets, don't begrudge me i'm a private (and alright shallow!!) person most of the time. Just as a sidenote because i almost typed more deeper, i heard a news presenter say "more clearer" on national TV today. Like seriously, more clearer? So anyhow, back to whatever. It's been a practically hellish week. I feel detached. The kind of feeling when you're just floating besides your body but still hurt so much, something like that. But its not such a good idea to dwell on such. But i must say its been quite terrible being confronted with the mock exams and the big Os PLUS a gigantic time constraints. i know i shouldnt worry but its my future as lame as it sounds. at least, its going to be my next two years and its going to matter, i know. Bio mocks are in 9 days, physics in 12, amaths in 14. How scary is that? i'm quite stressed, to put it in simple terms.
Today was, funny. there's a better way to get wet. Was tres amusing with the whole bunch of us trying to get to cine to ride the knight bus and the rain so heavy. we decided to take a bus down to the bustop with a sheltered overhead-brige but, missed the stop. ended up jay-walking and getting drenched anyway. Then we saw THAT tagline(recall the new wild wild wet theme park ads). Sadly, the bus was being held up by the rain so in the end i decided i needed to go home and study so i left the bunch of them at KFC@cine.
I have found the PERFECT song for tomorrow, cheers! should be fun, hope i actually get some mugging done. last time we tried studying for CL Os, hmm wasnt that unproductive. haha, shall wait for aunty Linda to return the call and then i will go and do some logarithms and etc! i have to pass my amaths mocks. Bye!
ok this wasnt particularly DEEP but hey, i think i put in more effort to write this than any in a long time. hehe. i wish i was at camp but then again im glad i'm not. hope gabby is studying (heehee) and esther (shopping right!) and well the rest i wish i was there with you guys but THE BIG OS is spelt D-O-O-M. Have fun in Malaysia! | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
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| | ok so the guy who was playing stan shunpike on the knight bus at orchard? he was siriusly cute. pun intended. so it was an uneventful ride. got some scar drawn on my hand by some stupid lady who ask my "80 year old" brother what he did at school. and like, it was pretty cool still tho. considering its free. and my dad said. "su-e i'm going to kill you for this" hahaha what with the lumos and crap. yes anyway. stupid day i was supposed to study. too bad didnt go for hillsongs concert. ahh well. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| ( games day ) interesting la the whole day, not so enjoyable, but wasnt a waste of time in the sense. had its ups, great awesome people =]
so i must stay offline. study study. should go and pack my room too. ahh well. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| no offence to the cast and crew cos i think u guys put in effort but i unfortunately didn't enjoy it. why? dont click ( here ) if u were part of it.
and shrek 2. wasnt all that enjoyable. funny yes, but quite a sad attempt at a parody(ies) which didnt come out in the way i expected. thought it would be nicer but it was entirely cliched. oh well. but my GOOODNESSSS. the spell joke. oh gosh it just SCREAMED mrs bala. but yeah the only thing that made an impact on me. and oh dear. fairy godmother reminds me of quah. charming reminds me of. (dies laughing) mark.
and what can i say i think i liked meangirls to shrek 2. (hahahahhahaha) how sad is that?!
I CANT WAIT FOR WEDNESDAY!!! GO ORANGE ORANGES!!! | | comments: 8 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | at the beginning <-- nat lahh. | | Time: | 09:26 pm |
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| pretty phone! heh. its entirely useless, has ZERO functions, messaging is hell but i love it and its mine! (hehe) im very pleased. its a completely style over substance phone. but just as well, at least its awesomely tiny (check out the specs man 80x40x17 awesome), and solitaire on my clie is all i need =]
last day of school!
and i really want to go for prom! and its their choice but i feel quite disappointed with my class. its such an, eleven behaviour. i guess im quite pissed too but so be it lorh. so sao xing. i guess its easy to say oh the cost is too high and all that blah but so sao xing! last time as a batch leh. hai. but its their choice lorh. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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